Monday, August 11, 2008

False Security

My mind has been trained that only Christianity can bring me peace 

But recently I have found peace in a new way

I've given you my time struggling to keep myself from going astray

What is this feeling you bring that is so foreign to me?

A feeling that allows me to escape from my world of worry?

A feeling that released me for a moment from my life of insecurity?

My mind ran freely in your arms that night

As I fell into a state of mind that I have never fell into before

One that brought no conviction, and my body yearning for more.

Maybe it's knowing that we cannot keep one another 

That we are able to exchange a common curiosity

And knowing you don't have the power to hurt me.

I've been trapped for a while in a place of discontent

Longing for a man I love who is out with other women

Thinking that I must keep myself behind a wall of purity and protection.

But for one night I let that wall down

And I thought I would harbor regrets

But somehow I was over-taken without any mind threats.

I've been upset because men do cheat

And all I did was stay faithful and true

But I may have found a new security I discovered being alone with you.

So tell me why I have found a new peace in a way that is forbidden?

Is it that my faith has lead me astray and weak?

Or is this just another case of false security?