My mind has been trained that only Christianity can bring me peace
But recently I have found peace in a new way
I've given you my time struggling to keep myself from going astray
What is this feeling you bring that is so foreign to me?
A feeling that allows me to escape from my world of worry?
A feeling that released me for a moment from my life of insecurity?
My mind ran freely in your arms that night
As I fell into a state of mind that I have never fell into before
One that brought no conviction, and my body yearning for more.
Maybe it's knowing that we cannot keep one another
That we are able to exchange a common curiosity
And knowing you don't have the power to hurt me.
I've been trapped for a while in a place of discontent
Longing for a man I love who is out with other women
Thinking that I must keep myself behind a wall of purity and protection.
But for one night I let that wall down
And I thought I would harbor regrets
But somehow I was over-taken without any mind threats.
I've been upset because men do cheat
And all I did was stay faithful and true
But I may have found a new security I discovered being alone with you.
So tell me why I have found a new peace in a way that is forbidden?
Is it that my faith has lead me astray and weak?
Or is this just another case of false security?
1 comment:
The one speaking the words in this poem is going through a phase of insecurity because of past relationships. She isn't cheating like it sounds, but when she expresses that she has the one she loves waiting for her, she is referring to the fact that her ex still loves her but he wants space. But at the same time, she finds herself relieved after spending time with another dude which allows her to not stress over her ex she is still in love with. She is getting the attention she's been yearning for from another man that won't force commitment. This brings security because she knows her ex is dating other females, and she was waiting for him the whole time. But not no more...
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